[ I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings... ]
Weather: Cloudy and cool
Music: "Melodies of Life" - Emiko Shiratori

This song must inspire me to write in my journal, cuz everytime I hear it I start to write a journal entry. o_o; I got the song to play on my journal...it's so spiffy. =D I'm in love with this song. u_u;

Anywhom...yeah. Today was a regular day in the life of a me. I woke up. It was rainy. I went to school. Ignored the friends I was mad at and talked to the friends I still have. Came home. Came online. Haven't had dinner yet though. My eating habits have been really odd. I'll eat like CRAZY one day, and the next day I can eat absolutely nothing and be just fine. o.o;

In English class we've been talking about Grief. Yeah, that's a bunch of fun when tons of your 'friends' are mad at you (I don't even think I should call them friends. Maybe just people.) and Chris is leaving...good grief. u_u; My friends are trying to make plans this weekend to get my mind off of things, I suppose. I haven't told any of them that I know Chris is moving yet...I don't know why. I don't feel like sharing it with them because then I know they're going to go and feel sorry for me. And I don't want them to do that. Cuz I don't want other people to carry my burden and I don't want sympathy. o_o;

Yeah. I'm still upset that Chris is leaving...but now I feel angry that he's leaving...like, mad at him. But I don't want to feel that way! Some evil devilthing in the back of my head keeps saying "He shouldn't be moving away!" But yeah...it's scary. Because I shouldn't be mad at him for leaving, that's just selfish. But I'm not as obsessed anymore. I don't look at him when he passes by, or blush or anything. I don't even want to look in his direction anymore. So I'm not sad when he says goodbye. But either way, I'm really going to miss him when he leaves.

[ In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me? ]
Weather: Warm and Sunny
Music: "Melodies of Life" - Emiko Shiratori

Like...yeah. I listen to this song too many times. u.u; That's what Final Fantasy love songs do to you. Even if they suck, you turn out loving it because it revolves around the story. IX is turning out to be one of my favorites (next to VII) so I really like the song. u_u; I'm hooked on playing 9 right now, so I kinda left 8 in the dust for awhile. When you play both 7 and 9, you realize the very very boring and naked plot that 8 has. o_o; 8 is... so weird...I like the love story in 8 thought. I like it better in 9 however. And for 7, I decided that Cloud is just gay with Vincent. u_u; Because I hate Tifa... narf.

Anyway, in 9 I'm leveling up and getting ready to go to Kuja's desert palace and enter the sexy kingdom of his. Okay, just kidding. I watched Joshua do it and I made fun of Kuja having Zidane come alone into his bedroom the whole time. So that's next. Yeah...I'll write more later. Alucard est waiting for me to give him a link! e.e;

[ Quizzes... ]

Which female character from Final Fantasy 7,8,9 are you??

Go find out here! made by

That's funny. ^_^ We've been calling Kristy Quistis for a very long time now, so I started calling Yen Rinoa and she started calling me Dagger (which is Garnet's nickname). I think the person who made the quiz did a poor job of describing Dagger though... o_o;

[ Wake up angry at the world ]
Weather: Rainy and Cloudy
Music: "Crush" - Mandy Moore

Find your inner Cowboy Bebop character.

Fifty Million Reasons to listen to your 'friends'
Weather: Warm and Sunny
Music: "Melodies of Life" - Emiko Shiratori

Well...I guess I'm not a real lucky person. u.u; A lot of you know that for the past like...year or so I've had really big crush...since 7th grade really, but it was kind of on and off. Before I never really did know him that much, but he's more of a friend this year. And I sort of got really close to him and some of you said it was kinda obsessive...and it was, I know that. But that's okay. o_o; Most of you know that when I seem obsessive I'm just exaggerating things.

Anyway...no, nothing's wrong, I'm not like, not his friend anymore or something. We're still friends and stuff, but I kinda got smacked in the face REALLY bad today. He's moving away. u.u; Away from here, forever and ever amen...so I'm REALLY out of it. I wish he didn't have to go away...but I can't stop that. So basically I'm just gonna try and spend as much time around him as I can until he leaves. I haven't really got any details yet-- like I don't know when he's leaving or why. I know where he's moving, but I'm not going to say for his sake... so yeah. I haven't cried yet though. I don't think I will either. u.u; Because most people would think that was dumb, and I think it would be dumb. So I'm just going to go scuttle away and be retarted like I usually am when someone's going to go away...

P.S. : I don't want sympathy so just...don't instant message me and go "I'm so sorry!" or something like that. o_O; I'm bad enough as it is, that'll just make it worse. And don't say 'I told you so' either. u.u; As a matter of fact, it's a good idea to leave me alone (depending on who you are) so I don't bite off your head.