[ Pocket lint and other fuzzy things... ]
Yesterday was the dance...and oh boy...I've got a TON of stuff to say. But I've typed it so many times and written and said it too many times...so this will probably be a shortened version...

When we first got there, I couldn't find Chris. Big big bummer, but then he came in a little after us. We were kinda half an hour late. So we danced for a little bit, I got pretty nervous and all since I promised one of my friends I would ask him to dance otherwise she would kill me. A slow song came on after awhile, Chris danced with that one girl who was stroking his hair... yeah. That one. o_o; I was really really upset. Cuz I was too afraid to ask him before she did. (...grr. The competition. :D) I watched for the rest of the night and kept him in my vision so I could ask him.

I danced with friends for a little while more. Another slow song came on and I couldn't find him. *dun dun dun* He was outside. Booyaka.

The VERY last dance...I was able to get a hold of him! Thank goodness...I would've felt bad if I didn't. He said sure and we started dancing...AWAY from his friends. e.e; He pulled me really close... o_o; It was...warm. o.o; And soft. And it was quiet and nice and he didn't have to say anything like he had to with the other girl. Usually it bothers me when I dance and the person just doesn't say anything. This time it felt like I wasn't suppose to say anything...so it all worked out and...*hing*! e.e; I've said this so many times it sounds SO emotionless...I put my head on his shoulder......cuz it felt right. o_o; And because I was tired, but that doesn't count...and he put his head ontop of mine. So yay. I must've done something right. ^_^;

...so how was your day? =B Heh, anyway. Yeah. Just had to put that down...I feel weird writing all this cuz I know that someone's reading it.. o_o; I think. Before it was just...like..bleh. *Blahblahblah*Chris*blahblahblah* and now I'm just having a really hard time saying anything. Maybe it's cuz it was kind of personal. u.u; But that's about one fourth of what I feel like...so multiply what I wrote by like...50 million cuz I was SO happy. o_o; Yeah. Okay...I'm just gonna STOP here. o_o; ...bai! ^__^;;

[When will the Chris stuff end??]
I'm so tired...of thinking about Chris. e.e; But he comes back, especially halfway through algebra class. Cuz I can't take my mind off of him or I get lost...but then I get lost when I think about him too. o_o; So that's pretty bad. Being lost at the fork in the road...scary. >.<

But he just has to be so perfect so yeah. We'll just find out how much I like him after Friday. u_u; I went through a stage where I hated him so much because I liked him so much. Or maybe I just hated him because I did. I was mad before, once, because one of my friends liked him and he forgot to dance with her. He said he would. He promised he would and he broke his promise. Promises don't mean the same thing to other people as they do to me, obviously. That's why I stopped trusting the majority of my friends... because they can't keep promises.

The dance is Friday! The dance is Friday! The dance is Friday! All my friends are worried about silly things like "What will I wear!?" "Who will I dance with!?" "It's the last dance, and if I don't dance with anyone my whole year is ruined!" and all I can think about is having to ask Chris to dance. And it's not that hard! It's the easiest thing ever, but it's the hardest thing to do! Why is that!? Why is it so easy to like someone so much, but so hard to tell them that? o_O; The world is a strange, sad, and crazy place...

Today...this one girl...that I REALLY don't like...was stroking Chris's hair. That made me so mad...and it was really funny, because one of my friends was with me (the one I was suppose to go to the dance with) and she knows I get jealous real easy. She just looked at me and started laughing, cuz I was so angry. ^_^;; I mean, it didn't really make me mad, but it made me...mad. And he just stood there and didn't say anything...while she stroked his hair and told him how much she loved it. I thought she had a boyfriend...I guess not. Chris doesn't like flirts...that's why I don't flirt with him. u.u; So yeah. That was my day. Basically. The french teacher sat him behind me so I can no longer stare at him the whole time and blush and turn away whenever he looks back at me. o_O;; Instead, I have to sit in front of him and wonder if he's looking at the back of my head. And reading all my thoughts....even though he can't do that...but that's how it feels.

Anyway...that's all I feel like saying for right now. I have tons of things to update, so I gotta get going. Laters!

[Chris...]
I was just joining up with Brinkster (I was going to start a Zidane shrine and see how far I got before I realized that starting a new website was a really stupid idea), and when you join up with them you have to put up an e-mail. So I was doing that and I logged into my account. Low and behold, there was an e-mail for me from one of my friends!

Last Saturday I was suppose to go to a dance with her, and I told her that if I didn't go (which is what ended up happening) she would have to tell me if Chris was there, and who he danced with. So we made that deal, since I couldn't go. I had to go have dinner instead (today my mom tells me I could've gone to the dance...feh).

And Chris was there! She said he didn't dance with anyone, though...I was hoping he wouldn't be there. Because if I'm not there and he's there then...I'm selfish. I wanted to dance with him. u_u; Next time, I WILL be there. Dinner with family or not! So he was with his friends most of the time, which is cool. But I can just see all his friends dancing with other girls and him standing there talking with them! >< My friends do that to me all the time. I can't dance. But I can dance if I dance with him. I remember it before. And there wasn't an eerie silence, he kept talking and I wasn't even concentrating on dancing, just being with him and...trying to look into his eyes while he was talking without blushing madly. o_O;

There's a school dance this Friday...I'm REALLY nervous too. I don't want to go though. Chris will be there, probably, he better be. And I'll ask him to dance, cuz I know he will. He says yes to practically everybody. But everyone wants to dance with him...no duh. So it's hard to even get a hold of him!! Fifty million girls swarm over like bugs to a lightbulb and then it's just like...yeah. But when I dance with him on Friday, I want it to have a purpose. ^_^ Not just because he's cute, or because he's the best looking guy there and all my other friends are dancing and I'm not. I want to dance with him cuz I like him a lot and because I've got a lot to tell him...I hope. ^_^

[Layout!]
I had to put a layout in the page, didn't I!? After all, I'm not one to go around with templated things done for me already! So I picked a cute purply layout, and Kuja matches it wonderfully. ^_^ I didn't intend on putting Zidane too, but he looked so kawaii just sitting there...and plus, it was too empty! So he's there too!

Heh, I'm starting to like it. It's so much nicer than what it was yesterday. I didn't see Chris today because well, my classes today didn't include french. Heh, my friends keep telling me about how much they hate that class. I look forward to going everyday. It's second hour, so it comes really fast and then goes by faster than I wish it did. French is okay, I'm good at memorizing foreign languages. Chris is okay too. ^_^

Anyhow...that's all I really have to say right now. I'm going to work on a couple websites before I sign off (in about thirty minutes). Today was a good day and all, so that's good! I'll go to sleep happy, hopefully. I didn't have homework and I don't have any tests to study for. Okay, so laters!

[Chris and Such]
Sorry...too lazy to make a layout yet. o_o; And parajournal like...died, so I got an account here. ^_^ It's nice anyway...

ANYHOW! Just to continue without making it seem like I'm moving, or something...Chris was there early today! ^_^ It was nice and all. And he looked all cute and rosy from walking to school. Anyway...yeah. That's only the good news though. Cuz if Chris is there and all is going good, something terrible is bound to happen.

I was looking over at him and such and he kinda kept walking over my way...and it was getting kind of...creepy. u.u; So I decided if he was going to do that, he was looking for some form of conversation. I decided I would go up and say hi! ^_^ And then, stupid stupid STUPID DJ came running out and talking about someone who had a crush on me. STUPID!! >.< I kept thinking "Shut up! Shut up! You're ruining the moment!" and he just kept on TALKING! So I told him that I didn't care and I think that scared him away.

So I am upset and such. It's not fair that everytime I try and have a conversation with Chris, HE has to interrupt it. I'm going to go like...study for a history test or something. So laters...